I cried

I haven't cried for a long time, I don't really remember when but I think it might be after losing a table-tennis match as a teenager or breaking up with a childhood sweetheart (I am a little embarrassed by this...), where has my soul gone?!!

Well this weekend, I was blessed to spend time with David Campbell (the founder of our church) and other fantastic guys. On Saturday night David prophesied into my life and 3 other great mates' lives (Dave, Daley, Stew) about how we would go into full time ministry in the future (something I had been thinking about for aaagggeesss...).

It was a lovely time where we prayed over each other and then spoke words from God into each others lives. I went last.

For the first time in too long I cried. I wept. I sobbed.

It was amazing.

The lord answering the prayers of my heart with words from my friends. The Lord giving me hope, excitement and challenge through my friends. The Lord humbling me through his plan.

I was at first overcome with a desire to be looked after, comforted (Isaiah 66:13), a friend immediately brought a word about how the Lord recognised my need and hunger.

The guys brought pictures about Band of Brothers (Hebrews 12:1 - "Weapons and ammo only"), a fruit tree (the only provision I need coming from God, and God alone), dropped tools and some others I won't share.

I was overcome with a feeling of unworthiness. Why me? Who even am I? Why do I deserve this plan? These blessings? These friends? How can I even serve God? What can I even bring?

This is what God was comforting me with.

I cried.

I hugged my friends.

I cried.

I laughed.

Thank you Lord.